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tugrik33 is an odd age (not just in the strict numeric sense). It's a notch in the life-study that doesn't really fit into any of the common roles.
The 20-somethings were spent with nose tucked against the Silicon Valley grindstone, developing the career that I'm now glad to posess. The 30-somethings are well underway, but I personally haven't taken much part in them compared to those around me. Co-workers, neighbors and friends are all trying to blunder through their version of the American Dream, be it kid-raising, house-building or ladder-climbing. Everybody seems terribly concerned with their life's path while at the same time having no idea how to go about it. It's like watching a sporting mach where nobody knows the rules: everybody running around with various balls, sticks and uniforms, but nobody knows which goal is theirs or how to score. At least they've been at it long enough that there's not as many fouls going on.
As for me, the midlife crisis ages aren't here yet nor is any real sight of the 'goal' of retirement much farther on -- but I'm all too aware of being past the Youthful Exuberance part. I'm moving too, but it's still in more of a study-and-explore way. I've got no net or goalpost to rush at just yet; I'm still enjoying the whole running around and adventuring part. At the same time I'm learning quite a bit by watching my friends and relatives with their goal-seeking. Some are just starting up their families to see where they go (Congrats again, sis! And congrats as well to a number of my net-friends on their families-in-progress). Others used the dot.com bubble to leap to their goal only to end up with some of the most unanswerable cases of "...what now?" that I've ever seen. I hope happiness and love helps them find their answer and define them new goals. Love is right there, friends... all around you. You've but to stop mooring yourself with pre-defined and pre-decided emotions. Free yourself and let go. Become part of the flow. It's how life works.
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There's a lot of things I've thought about in the week leading up to today. Some of them bear writing out and soon will be. Today, however, I'll put those heavier thoughts aside. It's my birthday. I'm 33. Time to celebrate life. :)
The 20-somethings were spent with nose tucked against the Silicon Valley grindstone, developing the career that I'm now glad to posess. The 30-somethings are well underway, but I personally haven't taken much part in them compared to those around me. Co-workers, neighbors and friends are all trying to blunder through their version of the American Dream, be it kid-raising, house-building or ladder-climbing. Everybody seems terribly concerned with their life's path while at the same time having no idea how to go about it. It's like watching a sporting mach where nobody knows the rules: everybody running around with various balls, sticks and uniforms, but nobody knows which goal is theirs or how to score. At least they've been at it long enough that there's not as many fouls going on.
As for me, the midlife crisis ages aren't here yet nor is any real sight of the 'goal' of retirement much farther on -- but I'm all too aware of being past the Youthful Exuberance part. I'm moving too, but it's still in more of a study-and-explore way. I've got no net or goalpost to rush at just yet; I'm still enjoying the whole running around and adventuring part. At the same time I'm learning quite a bit by watching my friends and relatives with their goal-seeking. Some are just starting up their families to see where they go (Congrats again, sis! And congrats as well to a number of my net-friends on their families-in-progress). Others used the dot.com bubble to leap to their goal only to end up with some of the most unanswerable cases of "...what now?" that I've ever seen. I hope happiness and love helps them find their answer and define them new goals. Love is right there, friends... all around you. You've but to stop mooring yourself with pre-defined and pre-decided emotions. Free yourself and let go. Become part of the flow. It's how life works.
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There's a lot of things I've thought about in the week leading up to today. Some of them bear writing out and soon will be. Today, however, I'll put those heavier thoughts aside. It's my birthday. I'm 33. Time to celebrate life. :)
