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I want it to rain.

Sure, a thunderstorm would be nice, with bonus points and all... but I'll settle for just plain ol' rain. Drat this state and its steady-state climate. I honestly miss some of the Michigan summer weather.

The house on Glenwood Drive was yet another where I was the Monster in the Basement, having gladly taken residence in the cool tile floor of 'down below'. For a teenage nerd there's nothing more enjoyable than an unusual living arrangement. I may have acted to my parents like I hated it, but I secretly loved my odd collection of living spaces. In the many houses I've grown in up, I was the monster under the stairs... the dragon in the basement... or the adventurer being the first to sleep in an in-progress new attic. In each case, the part I remember most would be the first time I'd hear rain, from each new location. The Glenwood basement was one of the favorites. When I grow old and my mind starts to fade, I already know one of the memories that I'll be taking refuge in. I had built an entire model airport in that basement, out of cut up manila folders and cheap plastic plane-models suspended from the ceiling by fishing line. I could hear and smell the rain just outside the casement windows, hitting the grass high up above my head. The lightning's flash would make the room flicker, even during the day -- and I could lose myself in the imagined images of an airport tower, using the telegraph key my dad had bought me to radio the pilots, helping them find their way home to land through the damp skies.

The other favorite was when I made my own bedroom out of haybales in the barn in Missouri, and snuck out there to sleep for a whole month. The bales were stacked a story and a half high in an interlocking way, so a kid like me could pull out the right ones in sequence to make caves, hallways, and an eventual open-air room way up top where nobody could see. It was, now that I think back on it, like a human Habitrail of sorts. I could climb up in there and be in my own lands. When the rains hit, the sound of the tin roof was incredible. I don't think my parents ever knew of my secret life there. My sisters knew of the places, playing there in the daytimes now and then, but I doubt they ever knew the significance it had for me.

Even living in a boring-weather, dry-summer area as I have for 8 years now, I can close my eyes and smell the rain. In my mind I'm sitting on the back corner porch of the Plainwell house, the midday storm-clouds filtering light to a gentle but UV-rich cast that turn the wet tree leaves a vivid green. The distant rumbles of a thunderstorm's near miss make the world feel more alive. The wandering thermal anvil-heads were living things to me; I could feel them as they arbitrarily growled at fields only a few county roads away. The hope, and at the same time... dread... that they would feel me in return and wander my way, was overwhelming at times. My family will remember this, how I was at once the most afraid and the most fascinated by the storms of anybody in our line. My whole life is punctuated between memories of storms; segways between chapters in life. It makes me smile to remember the playful laughter with friends as we darted through bathwater-warm rainshowers to the car; the weather a perfect ending-credit on the lazy summer day matinee we'd just watched. I could go on for hours like this, but the memories feel trivial to see written.




The news man today said there's a tiny, remote, slight chance of rain. Maybe. If we're lucky, and that butterfly in Brazil flapped its wings last Tuesday. The amount of hopefulness this jolted through me left me quite surprised.

They shouldn't tease me like that.

I wish it would rain.

--- o O o ---

Reading the words.
That describe my frame of mind.
Pull me through the fears of nowhere.
Leave me waiting for the rhymes...


-- P.M. Dawn, Raining Cats and Dogs

Date: 2002-09-04 01:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] octantis.livejournal.com
I wish it would rain too. When it rains here, I think of Spokane, and the various kinds of rain we had. The normal rainy days, where the sky would be steely grey, but colors on the ground, though darker, seemed somehow richer. The pounding downpours that came in sheets and waves, washing over the street, that I could watch from the house's picture window. The summer storms that didn't actually drop much rain, but instead electrified the air, smelling of water and ozone, and rumbling overhead. The fine, misty drizzles that cooled and tickled my skin.

I sure don't miss the snow, though.

Date: 2002-09-04 08:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] perlandria.livejournal.com
I expect it will rain within the month (I am hoping Friday night). It is time for one of the rare, rare thunderstorms.
That post was just increadibly neat. Thank you.

Date: 2002-09-04 09:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wordslinger.livejournal.com
What a wonderful journal piece, Tug! Nothing to add, just "gosh! I *REALLY* enjoyed that and can really relate to it!!"

Bravo!

Date: 2002-09-04 04:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] noressa.livejournal.com
At least you Bay-Area~ites get mist and fog... ^^; Would be the #1 thing to move me down there from Sac. The second being summertime highs...

I was wondering if I could add you to my friends list? I have some friends already in that area... Always ready to try and make another...
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Bay weather, Sac, et al.

Date: 2002-09-04 05:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] noressa.livejournal.com
Thank you very much. ^_^

I can usually be found circling Sunnyvale. I have a few friends down there... One in particular near the Home Depot... Mayhaps coffee or something along those lines in the future. Here or there, no matter.

(I can't wait for our rainy season, personally... Weeks of cloudy days... Everyone at my office complains for sunny days, but I love it. ^_^)

Date: 2002-09-04 04:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tugrik.livejournal.com
Please, be my guest! I wish the mist and fog were more true, but in the South Bay it's kind of rare. One must crest the hill to the coast or head up to SanFran proper to get any real fog, save for a few months in the middle of our so-called winter.

Sacramento? Aye, I don't envy your summertime temperatures. :) I drive through there on the way to see friends in Cool (a tiny town behind Auburn). You're not far away at all. Welcome!

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Date: 2002-09-04 05:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] noressa.livejournal.com
^^; Responding to a deleted post... Oh well. ^_^

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